Feeling letter....

Great......... So thats what u have been seeing in me.. I'm playing mind game with you... for what I have to do that?

Dear Alex
I am writing this letter to share my pain in order to find acceptance, forgiveness and love.

Right now I feeling angry for what you have said: "I'm playing mind game with you"

I feel angry that you have not called me at all to check on my sickness.
I feel angry because you have not show that you care at all!~
I feel angry when you said that because I told you not to call me so you don't call.
I wish you could have called.

I feel sad that you said those words - that i'm playing a mind game
I feel sad because I find myself stupid for missing you and you think that I'm playing mind game on you.
I feel sad when you thought all these was a mind game.
I wanted just to learn to love you back and to live happily ever after and by asking all these questions are just part of my own assurance.

I feel afraid that what you said was not truth. Its too sudden change from uo, down and up again.
I feel afraid because what you do never tell me you loved me nor missed me.
I feel afraid when you are not around to talk to me.
I do not want to be alone
I need your love and friendship

I feel sorry that I can't give you some space to think and make you feel pressurise by me
I feel sorry because I'm those kind of person that if I want an answer, I want an answer. I can't wait for a min or less.
I feel sorry when I think about the love we shared and the time we tried to make it work
I want you to love me
I hope I can learn to let go.

Thank you for listening

Love, zuwee